feel her

Sorry ,but i tried my best , to hold you back.
Holidays were great (: Monday went out to study w Clinton and Sherman . Talked alotalot . Of course we studied (?) (: Thanks for waiting for me so long for th SLC briefing . Tuesday was SLC . PartnerC CMI . So went makan w Charlene. H2H talks . VERY sweet . (: We talked alotalot . Laughed alot too . (: Very long ago since we talked . SLC was tiring . Home then . Wed , a day out w vanessa , her bro and benson . Though was boring at first , but it went well after that . Lan , arcade , lan . Nice day !. HAHA . Met PartnerC and Di then , in th mac . Laughhhhh ~. PartnerC has a cool way of styling his hair uh . HAHA . Home then . Talked to Di . Plan for tomorrow is to go out w cousin and friday is to EAT THE SASHIMI MAN . LOL . Sat , meeting PartnerC and others(?) , buy albumsss !. Sunday is rest day uh . Homework not done !. Lit project is a GC . I dont know how to do !. Oh , had fun laughing at shenjia's msn name . BlackBird . LOLOL !. HAHA . Keep disturbing him that he can flyy . And then he keep repeating , ' i tell you th last time , BlackBird is not a bird , its a damn shuai colour ' . Awww , who gives a damn ?. BIRD IS A BIRD (:

I dont know why am i feeling so damn loww these few days . I really dont . It feels so suckish . When people ask me to share , I simply dont know how to share it . That sucks , alot . I dont know how and what to do next . I felt so lost . I dont know what to do . I dont want to cheer up . I just want to feel that way . Like now , i have no goals etc . No matter how i set them , i just ruin them th next step . It just sucks to feel that way , where you feel that you're no longer important , no longer worth living in this world . Sometimes , it just sucks . I want to go on , but it seems like its telling me , hey , no point going on . Whats th point of living ?. I really dont know what to do next . I really dont . Really .

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Get out here , H .